What a night!!!sleepless,restless,anxious and so loooooong.
This was not new.It's been there for quite some time.
Another Day.Routine,mundane and same.
I got off my bed,drew out the curtains and peeped
The dark devilish sky overcast as if ready to engulf me.
I felt petrified,shaken and perturbed.
"How lonely do I feel"I pondered for a while
In the next room my children slept peacefully.
Nothing pleases me not even the felicitation of my children.
A deep sense of gloom overcast with sudden sense of misery deeply engulfed me.
These were the demons of my mind.Playing games uninterruptedly.
Everyday a hopeless day and every night a sleepless night.
Every time I thought of overcoming it ,I failed.
Finally I admit I had to seek medical advice.
There I went for a professional help to get rid of my demons.
"May I come in Doctor" I said,
There he sat in his chair dignified and calm.
This gentle ,old man who claimed he had more experience
than my age warmly greeted me.
I discussed my thoughts and he heard patiently.
Like an open Pandora box the thoughts became exposed.
This gentle old man gave one piece of advice Life Is Precious Don't Waste It.
Rest were the medicines.
"Remember you can forget to brush your teeth but don't forget your medicines"
said he.
I came back home remembering an old poem my father would
read out to me"Tell me not in mournful numbers life is but an empty
Dream,..............."
Anyhow the medication continued,the therapies progressed and I immersed myself in deep
Spiritualism.The new aura and energy surrounded me now was completely different.Slowly and slowly I reclaimed myself.
Today I am more confident ,alert and yes happy.Happy to have discovered myself.This new self discovery is like self evolution.The medication still continues but Iam deeply indebted to three old fellows-my doctor and my parents.
"Life is real,Life is earnest
And the grave is not its goal!!!"
This was not new.It's been there for quite some time.
Another Day.Routine,mundane and same.
I got off my bed,drew out the curtains and peeped
The dark devilish sky overcast as if ready to engulf me.
I felt petrified,shaken and perturbed.
"How lonely do I feel"I pondered for a while
In the next room my children slept peacefully.
Nothing pleases me not even the felicitation of my children.
A deep sense of gloom overcast with sudden sense of misery deeply engulfed me.
These were the demons of my mind.Playing games uninterruptedly.
Everyday a hopeless day and every night a sleepless night.
Every time I thought of overcoming it ,I failed.
Finally I admit I had to seek medical advice.
There I went for a professional help to get rid of my demons.
"May I come in Doctor" I said,
There he sat in his chair dignified and calm.
This gentle ,old man who claimed he had more experience
than my age warmly greeted me.
I discussed my thoughts and he heard patiently.
Like an open Pandora box the thoughts became exposed.
This gentle old man gave one piece of advice Life Is Precious Don't Waste It.
Rest were the medicines.
"Remember you can forget to brush your teeth but don't forget your medicines"
said he.
I came back home remembering an old poem my father would
read out to me"Tell me not in mournful numbers life is but an empty
Dream,..............."
Anyhow the medication continued,the therapies progressed and I immersed myself in deep
Spiritualism.The new aura and energy surrounded me now was completely different.Slowly and slowly I reclaimed myself.
Today I am more confident ,alert and yes happy.Happy to have discovered myself.This new self discovery is like self evolution.The medication still continues but Iam deeply indebted to three old fellows-my doctor and my parents.
"Life is real,Life is earnest
And the grave is not its goal!!!"
Beautifullll !! very nice and touchy....i loved it :)
ReplyDeleteAn honest and inspiring struggle to discover one self. Keep the spirit high.
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone for your encouragement!!!
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